Friday, November 9, 2012

Thursday, November 8, 2012

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What do you think of how the world has been set up?

Stopping and Smelling the Roses

Glory Glory What the Hell of a Way to Die

I have to make sure I have my parachute before I jump out of the plane.

'8I Truth Behind Intentions

So, you kids wanted to sneakily total totalling yourselves and leave us in the moral dust to be totalled as crap.

White Legs versus Tan Legs

A Lesson (Well-)Learned

I noticed something.

My hands really did used to look really good.

I knew it would get worse as time went on and I stopped playing the piano.

It's like being old and dead.  Up north, my hands hardened up.  I was kicked out of piano and voice at my original college.  It was the most pain I'd felt other than later my back writhing for like 1|2 hour.

I was also thinking ... well, you see the piano is what made me interesting.

What did I just do?

Don't all the things I did wrong have to do with things like money?

Please don't toss up what I did at birth.

Well-Intended

So, I have good intentions but did things wrong literally?  So what?

Being European

Some people are desperate for attention.

I wonder why I can't act European like other people do.

Why do people tell me I'm things I'm not.

Pretty much, anything you don't let me do you let other people do.  I have one mission in life, and that's impossible.

Kids!

So, people the age of Jimmy Fallon's kids would be born in like 1994+.  For Ellen DeGeneres it's 1998.  I think that people her age had kids 1978.  People could have kids in 1985 if they were born 1945.

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*shit*

Why do people want everyone to get away as *shit*

Judge

People who don't like to sing think they can judge people who posted videos of them singing Andrew Lloyd Webber on YouTube.  Pretty much, the karaoke company holds the rights, but I'm "discontinuing..."

'8I Marco

I guess I wasn't supposed to be European and understand the crowd.

Big and Popular

Oh wow, you gotta serious problem with healthy eaters?

Also, quit acting like you're popular.  You were pretty mean to me.  I didn't really attack you as a person.  Oh wow!  Who the Hell do you think you are?  Why do you have to take things so literally!

Quit It!

Quit being stupid and prissy.  I can say whatever I want.  Just because I get mad doesn't mean you can bonk me on the head.  How stupid can you be?  Think for yourself, lame brains, and don't take *shit* so literally.

Hypnosis

I'd probably be stronger and better and understand it.

You can't keep doing things to ruin my life when things happen to me.  WTF do you think I am?  Do you think I have to submit myself to the idiocy that surrounds the popularity of people born in the early 60s and late 50s?

Getting Away

Ellen DeGeneres gets away with a lot of weird messages.  I mean, she makes suggestions yet doesn't exemplify them as a person.  I'm not really sure, though, where I'm getting these suggestions.

When I Was a Child

Why doesn't Ellen DeGeneres exemplify the traits she had as a child yet says she represents them?

Isn't

Why does Ellen DeGeneres think she is destined for the esteem she has?  I mean she isn't half Chinese.

Are you asking me a question?

What's so impressive about acting like people born around 1957-1961 fall apart by choice?

Stupid Suggestions

Why are young people so suggestive?

Like, they want to ruin your life at the base.

Why does Ellen DeGeneres attack you if you're not perfect, like she's waiting for the perfect person, just to make herself up like she holds the expectations of others?  Who deserves to expect people to be perfect because of "who they think they are?"  Also, note, Ellen DeGeneres was like a perfect child and became perfect again as an adult, though as a preteen and teen she seemed to be a tomboy, for sure.  Well, she seems to have had different kinds of stages, too...

Notice that Tim Burton follows this suit, as well.  I guess they're protecting Johnny Depp.

I don't know what people think, however innocent, however soft, but I'm tired of being flipped off by Tim Burton in after-messages.  Like, I can't turn to anyone and have to see them go crazy in steps because of their heritage?  Don't do that!  :0

What's so grand about being stupid?

This needs no explanation.

Why did talk show hosts become so annoying?

Sorry, Jimmy Fallon, for saying you didn't say anything after awhile, because you weren't in the room.

Cooking Goods

Why would my dad question my mom for not making food I like?

My Life is a Ride

My life is a roller coaster, a really bad roller coaster.

Every time something really good happens, something really bad has to happen.

Cares

I notice my dad's careless.  My mom raised us on really healthy food, except there was a time when my mom let me have a hot dog with Raman noodles, while she was pregnant with my brother.

So, I went to the mental hospital.  My mom let me have healthy hamburgers and make my own pizza.

You know, I wonder why my dad is so unforgiving to my mom and doesn't really take responsibility.

So, my dad gave me lots of Pizza Pockets and took me to the movies after.  There was a huge box from Costco!  He also insisted I take the medicine.  I went back when I got off it the first time.  You know, it's unbearable there.

Wait, this girl, instead!

Wait, I mean this girl.  The other girl was just prominent in the credits.

"Reba" ran from 2001-2007.

This girl is born in 1979, in Tampa.  The other girl was born in California.

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TV

I turned on my TV and found a tall lady in the air force with white hair.

I watched "Reba."  I liked Scarlett Pomers, but she's born in 1988.

Reba is cool, but I wonder why she's still doing TV.  I never hear much about TV stars.

Here are 2 pictures I like of Scarlett:

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School

So, in Pre-K, we had no music.  It was a Catholic school in Southeastern Florida but not along the coast.  People taunted me both years.

In kindergarten, we didn't really seem to do much.  I remember listening about black people on the head phones and a lot of things like that and coloring.  I actually liked the coloring.

In 1st grade, we learned to read eloquently, at least I did.

In 2nd grade, we had phonics, but I didn't pay attention and did well.

In 3rd grade, we got stories read to us a lot and had lectures.

In 4th grade, I got glasses.

In 5th grade, I had problems not going to the bathroom.

In 6th grade, I started going to sleep late.

In 7th grade, I was under the belief I'd get enough sleep.

In 8th grade, I failed the gifted test.

In 9th grade, I wasn't popular.

In 10th grade, I was busy.

In 11th grade, I flunked and switched to an unaccredited Baptist school down the street.

In 12th grade, I didn't get a 4.0.

In my 1st semester of college, I hadn't read my summer honors English books.

In my 2nd semester of college, I stayed up until like 5 A.M.

During the summer, I couldn't do any of the homework.

My 1st semester 2nd year, I couldn't do any of the history and had problems with the theory at the school during the hurricane break.

My 2nd semester 2nd year, ballet made me fat doing the after-school program, as well, and the really good people leaving.  I couldn't succeed in the non-honors courses in general studies.

My 3rd semester 2nd year, I felt tortured by noises that made me want to commit suicide and was taken to the police.

My 1st semester my 3rd year, I had to leave General Studies and had fun in the science lab courses.  I got a good part in The Nutcracker in the city but had to go home.

I took 1 course for 1 credit hour at my new home in Orlando by a guy who looked like Obama.

Next semester, I did classes online.  I lost my friends when I kept spamming them.  I failed.  I have to repeat the courses but won't.

I withdrew my next semester.  I remember going on Facebook one semester, too, but I didn't get on until the summer.

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Schools are making kid sit around all day but be submitted to stupid feelings. Bad kids ramble on and make jokes with the teacher. They have you memorize facts and not read. Always.

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Plotting Against Me

People are actually out there plotting against me and only me ultimately who know me well for some reason, now.

It's My Life - Don't You Forget

So, people are trying to make my life inevitably as bad as others's.

Knocked Out

Look, I'm tired of people setting up how I will be knocked out behind my back.

Under the Wind

So, it looks like people are skirting around trying to calculate if I would do something bad if I could.

What's the deal?

Ugh!  Why do tweens act so mature yet stimulated?

Right Now

If you want attention, come and get it!

Stuck Ups

Did you notice that teens think they're better than you?

Wild Fantasies

Do you know people who make wild fantasies want life to be really complicated and hard yet uninteresting and rather boring?

Desired High School Schedule

Year 1
1. Religion I
2. English II  H
3. Geometry H
4. History
5. Biology I H
6. Health | PE I
7. Art I

Year 2
1. Religion II
2. English III APH
3. Algebra II APH
4. History
5. Chemistry I H
6. PE II
7. Art II

Year 3
1. Religion III
2. English IV APH
3. Advanced Math APH
4. History
5. Civics
6. Physics H
7. Art III

College - Loyola University New Orleans - Public Relations & Honors w|required minor in Women's Studies

I would go during the summer, at least 3 courses, and take 18 hours a semester.  I'd graduate in 3 years, when I am turning 20, rather than when I am turning 22.  Then, I could work for Disney with young children or tweens.

Stop doing that!

Don't do things to my future son that I wouldn't even do to him!

"Bam! Elimination! Lack of Education"

Loyola has discontinued its Education program.  It was in the works while I was being let go as a Music Education major.

Hey!

How much are you gonna have to touch upon?  Don't touch my future son!  He's not your son!  Yes, you can interact with him.  Yes, you can technically touch him sometimes, but I shouldn't have to say that.

Following the Crowd

Did you notice Ellen DeGeneres likes to actually go along with the crowd, herself?  I just realized that.

Just Finished Breakfast

I wish I got breakfast Hot Pockets or strudels, but I guess they would cost too much money.  I had bacon, too.

Ruining My Relationships

The thing is I pretty much don't get close to my dad in that way.  I get more emotional with people who are more emotional.  I'm not sure if it's because my mom is Chinese.  He's just always been that way.  I really don't like it and wanna get out.  I just have to live here for my health.  I'm not sure what to do.  I don't want it to ruin my relationship with my mom, neither.

Sue

I found out people were watching me through an experiment.  So, I noticed my dad seems to be really sensitive to me.  It made me mad because I was sensitive around him to not have him know too much about me.  He was supposed to not watch me.  I'm very mad.  I wanna sue.

Dream

I remember there was a tollbooth in a tollbooth.  The one inside was red.  It turned out to be to small and for Barbies.  My brother and I were there and saw my dad adding numbers to subjects on a computer.  I kept getting mad at him for being suggestive but then hugged him and decided not to get mad.  Other things happened, too.

Before, I know we were traveling and buying things.

Ah! I just woke up!

I put my computer to sleep.

Gonna have donuts.

You know, I don't really get that fuzzy feeling when I wake up, though I am a bit tired.  It's from the weekend when I was trying to talk to my dad.  I guess he's winding down, now.

Nighty Night

Come back, now, ya'll, y'hear?
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Girls's Room

I'm having to use the restroom a lot now (#1.)

No Tea?

Well, I'm hitting the sack, soon.  :{  I wanna see what's on TV.  I jogged tonight.  My stuff's loaded.  I guess I gotta just keep getting better.  I could *beep* myself for not posting online sooner, on a blog.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Hanging Out

I guess I'll be messing around.  Maybe get some things done tonight and go to bed.

I'm here, again!

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See you all, a little later...

Sorting of the States ~~*

Florida - New York - California

New Jersey - California

Pennsylvania - Kentucky

Michigan - Washington, D.C.

New Orleans - Cleveland - Orlando

Suits Your Fancy

Maybe, we need to do something to suit others's "needs" "just in case."

Please, don't tell me I'm not good just because you're famous or have kids and live in Europe|England|Ireland.  Don't suggest things.  I'm not sure I understand what's going on?

You think I can treat you however?

Also, you can't tell lesser people to suffer inconveniences behind their backs.  Oh, wow!  Way to say you're the best at some thing.  Are you okay?  Please, be okay!  Maybe, my blog isn't okay for you.  You know, people don't want to be treated certain ways.  Generally, we say why not treat you in the same fashion?  You keep insisting we do it.  Also, I'm not sure what's up with ideas that others come up with of things that don't exist.  Maybe, I'll figure it out, later.

Why do you think this is okay and we need to do things in case?  We may as well attack.

I think you think I'm an insult to be a certain way or to borrow culture from other cultures.

Hm, I see I was really torn apart.  ':|  How long will that take to put back together?

You can't keep sucking up to people and using me as trash.  Wow, I'd better really d* y** i*.  I don't have to listen to you.

Going Down

I need to find an old message on Twitter and confiscate it.  I said some people couldn't talk to me if they talked to my dad, but I think things are a bit different.  Now what?  I'm a little occupied, might go do something, hope I can find it, wonder who I sent it to.

Do you know?

Do you know people, like especially Baby Boomers, who just want to ruin everything in everyone, really, ultimately?

Coming up With Things

That's so perverted, the fantasies you make up to stimulate other people you think are racist.

Meany

Look, if you're mean to me, I guess you just said someone told you to do it.

Doesn't that mean I can be mean back to whoever's fault it is?

Using People

You wanna run that by me again?

You can't keep insulting people because of me like some mangy mutt!

Overly Sensitive

If you know what I really mean and that I'm not talking about something you did, then what's your itch?

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WHAT'S GOING ON HERE?

Wo hoh someone came out of their shell!

I never!  I got the message from represented by the likeness of Helena Bonham Carter that my daughter is being stimulated in a way I don't want her to be.  Look, I'm not wound up, myself.  You don't know how mad I am.  Who did this?  Tell me, immediately!  Then, call the police, 911!

Look, I know I've experienced different sensations, but I never want this to happen!

Somebody, do something!  This has never happened!  It's being done.  I didn't make this up.

Now what?  What else do I say.  Fix it!  I didn't want this to happen!

I bet it was my dad.  Somebody, get him behind bars and give me my money!  I know we just spent some.  He didn't take me to the mall to get a sweater, though.  Go make some other lunatic who takes things for granted experience a meditation on a sweater.

SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING!

Hello!  Why don't you listen to the magnitude of what I say, ever?

Hello!  I shouldn't have to do this.

Don't bask yourself to the world and cause them to be stimulated in ways they don't want to be.  Don't tell us to try to process it.  Some things are not easy to understand, and I don't really try to hurt anyone and am very careful in how I think.  I did that growing up, as I could, and my life wasn't totally bad.  Stop twisting things I say against my future daughter!  I SAID STOP.  STOP PRETENDING YOU DIDN'T DO IT.  I AM ENRAGED.  STOP putting me off.

You don't have a reason to go crazy and do whatever you want.  Get out of my life.  Yes, you could have been in my life if you respected me.

I don't care about anything you do.

I'm quite mellow.

Tired.  I feel like singing.  Oops, I need makeup.  I feel reeeally bad all the time physically, but not hurt nor disgusting.  Just weak, especially at my torso.  I am indeed sorta connected like gumby.  Maybe, I need a break.  Something's wrong, though.  I went a week without the right food.

I just made a post, on Facebook.

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Desired High School Etc. Schedule

Year 1
1 English I G
2 Geometry G
3 Freshman Orientation | Civics
4 Physical Science H
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater I
7 Talented Music I

Year 2
1 English II G
2 Algebra II G
3 World History
4 Biology I H
5 PE II | Health
6 Talented Theater I
7 Talented Music II

Year 3
1 English III APG
2 Advanced Math APG
3 American History APG
4 Chemistry I H
5 Talented Theater II
6 Talented Music III
7 Talented Art I

Year 4
1 English IV APG
2 Calculus I APG
3 Physics
4 Free Enterprise |
5 Talented Theater IV
6 Talented Music IV
7 Talented Art II

College - BFA - Loyola University New Orleans - Singing & Ballet

Apology

Sorry for some things I let slip when I was really steamed up.

Don't worry, I never directly address certain people.

Website Edit

Anglo-Irish, Irish, German, Viking, Jewish, German|French|Swiss|Austrian|Leichtensteiner

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Touchy

I don't know why, but I have a touchy back.

Race

In America, do you ever stop and wonder what ethnicity people are?

People don't respect me for my European heritage, and it makes me go haywire, all the time, loco en la cabeza.  %

I'm a pretty nice person.  It's hard to document what I've done wrong.  The only big thing was forgetting to write my cousin, but I don't know why.  Then, you can see what's on my website.  Other things have shaped my life, as well, in this way.  Well, I know some people don't like being around me thinking I look funny but acting antsy about how.  I don't really know.  I know once a friend told me to call her a butthole or something.  Another time, I stuck my tongue out at her.  I was a preteen and far away with some other people.  I was kidding around the last day of school in the car with a friend.  I said at least I don't spread false messages, just trying to joke like they did, that her shirt said something like, "Catholic Schools - Schools You Can Believe In."  That's all I remember with that.  I visited the latter friend numerous times upon moving.  Once, I was so mad the door slammed like air, in front of her mom, who travelled all the way to Louisiana from Florida with her to stay for awhile.  We usually visited for 2 weeks or maybe a month.  Anyway, she seemed mad at me a lot and like I wasn't cool|good.  There's more to it, but I don't know what!  I just realized that these things with my friends happened after this event.  I'm not really sure when they started pestering me about being perfect.  I believe that they were like that before.

You know, people get really explosive about being European.  You know, in America, that does mean to act like in a certain organized way with feeling though not necessarily nor pointedly German.  I've never heard it described.  What a pity!

Website Update

I added 2 new old blogs.

http://2012-11-1-1.blogspot.com
http://2012-11-07-2.blogspot.com

Apology

Sorry for a suggestion I made.  I didn't use the right wording.

Shake

I just felt a shake.  I'm worried at random that my parents will call the police and have them take me to Lakeside, where it's poor quality and you can't sleep at night.  The girls's side is also way too small, much much much smaller than the boy's side.  The boys have like 15 rows of sofas, and the girls have one small room with sofas and chairs arranged around a TV.

Alla

It seems like people just want you to decide to cower to them.

Tim Burton

Did you ever consider the support and approval Tim Burton gives to Nell Burton?

Mom

My mom's not been at work as much, lately.  She had a bothersome look, as though she's not my mom, yet in a way mimicking Helena Bonham Carter, as though she sent her a message to teach me a lesson how servile she was.  Tim Burton really displays a queasiness for jealousy of things in my life.  I don't really want to be involved in these celebrities in this way.  I wasn't before the n word thing.

Did you ever stop and consider all the bad things that've happened to people because of social networking?

Website Update

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Website Update

I added a link to old sites, well, Blogger accounts, so far: link.

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I edited an old post.

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